Refusing to care doesn't make you stronger. Hiding doesn't save you from yourself. Laughing at something doesn't give you control over it. Walking away from everything doesn't make it go away. 

Everything will work out, but you need to change nonetheless. You need to change because your intentions are good but your actions aren't. You need to change because you're numb and lonely. You need to change because you aren't taking care of yourself. You're lying to yourself. You're shutting yourself off. You're telling yourself stories.